when hope's the only thing to hold on to

sometimes i wonder

what this is all about

what i'm meant to do

where i'm heading to

how long do i try

what can satisfy

sometimes its much easier to trust

...and only trust

*the girl*

# sheena
# 15 yrs old

*the loves *

# God
# badminton
# running
# sports of any kind
# my room
# my friends
# my cell (mustard saplings)
# holidays
# milo
# ice-cream

*its just me.noone else. *

To put it simply, im just your average teenager
who worries too much
tries to hard
and makes a fool outta herself
but i'll stand up again
or at least i'll try
and trust my maker
to carry me on eagle's wings

*i'm dreaming *

::move to live in Australia::
::get a G.P.A of at least 3.4::
::top 4 for cheers doubles in september::
::endless supply of haagen daaz ice-cream::
::church camp to happen all over again::
::holidays and more holidays::
::meet you::

Sunday, August 06, 2006

ok. i guess i didnt really update this blog. its been a mad rush. 3rd term in RGS is always like that. crazy test schedules and piles of performance tasks. i just WANNA SCREAM!!! ARGHHHH! okok...stress relieve is over.

oh well, so much has been going on that i dunno where to start and i cant possibly write everything down...well, to start with, track is over for this year. thank God! well, but i got badminton doubles tournament coming up this september! i really really hope to be able to get into the top 4 positions! i guess i just gotta do my God and let God do the rest.well, actually, that's often easier said than done. i WORRY too much. i guess i gotta learn...it'll save me lotsa white hair yah. ok. enuf of my lame jokes. but this tournament is quite important cause it might enable me to get into SBA. well, if u didnt noe, i've been tryin to get in but somehow i always dun get in although my tournament results are not bad and i can win some of their players. yahs. i guess its alot of politics. but i dunno lah. maybe not going to SBA may be better too cause i wont be so busy. but yet again, it'll be so much better to have proper training. oh well, i guess i'll leave it to God lah. if he wants me there, he'll make a way and if he thinks im better outta there, well, than i can only trust that he makes all things work for good. oh well... but i still wanna get in!. hahas okok.. i'll just wait and see and of course...pray.

the past few weeks have also been a great spiritual journey for me i must say. i believe God is really working and i'm really excited about it. i mean, it feels really so good to feel connected with God. i mean, it feels that my life is now centred around God and it never felt so right.. of course i stumble (very often). i mean, i'm not perfect. its not like i've sudd become some kinda saint or something but at least now i try to live a life as pleasing to God as possible...and life has never been as fulfilling as living for God. I wanna do more for His kingdom and it's really exciting. just a few weeks ago, youth ablaze was talking abt mission and i really hope i can go on one at the end of this year! imagine how God would show up!

today's service at church was amazing! we got this asian american speaker to speak. she's very young! only abt 28 i think! but God is using her so mightily! she's like a modern day prophet and she's so sensitive to God's voice!!how i wish i could hear God as clearly as she does! and her message was really powerful and interesting. i prob could rattle off and type out her whole sermon out here but to save your eyes from staring too long at the com, i'll cut the long story short! basically, she felt that God is going to bring a great harvest across Asia and it's gonna start with Singapore and our church would be used mightily!! and the confirmations she got from the Lord were amazing!!! it's like God had it all planned out! she was speaking about the angel called "breakthrough" appearing to her group in berkely and also to one of the pastor in Singapore, telling them that "Breakthrough is here" its really so cool!!! i wanna see angels too! but aside from that, there were many other confirmations that were just awesome! another thing was that Singapore is 40 this year and turning 41 and in the Bible, the Isrealites wondered in the wilderness for 40 years and crossed over in the 41st year!!! so this is the year of the cross over! the great harvest!!! oh man! there were still many more stuff that shows that this was God's divine arrangement and not just some coincidence!!! okok. i better stop here...my mum's bugging me for the com...but to end off on a high note, GOD IS AWESOME!!! a million amens to that!!!!

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xinquan & sheena out
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