Thursday, August 31, 2006
oh wells. here's the september school holidays... you'll probably be thinking i must be so relieved. well, its actually quite the opposite really. i mean, it's only 1 week? hello? and i've got like, 4 major PTs to complete and a maths test to prepare for and badminton tournament to entertain me during these seven days. yes. i'm whining. and complaining. and wondering why my life's in such a sad state. oh well, yes yes. i guess the right attitude my mummy and daddy will be proud to see would be me saying that all these would just enhance my learning journey and help me learn to develop all-roundedly. hey! but i'm a kid, or at least in a sense. so complaining is one of my rights(i believe s0). anyway, enuf said about that. i'll just slog it through and look forward to the end of years holidays! thats when the real party begins!! woohhoo! lols.
we had teachers day celebrations in sch today. were supposed to have aces day but it rained like crazy so we ended up staying in class (not doing the workout) and waited for our form teachers, who never showed up! hahas. ok, nvm, that just meant we could slack through the aces routine. anyway, our class got a cushion, which we personalised, for our form and CLET teachers...hahas. apparently, ms siow wasnt in sch today cause no one saw her and we couldnt find her either. hope she isn't sick. she seemed unwell the past few days.if ms siow's sick then, GET WELL SOON MS SIOW! too bad you missed teachers day today. we had some performances in the school hall aft that. was quite ok lah. i guess the highlight was MR TOH's performance. yes mr toh, if you're reading this ( i noe he reads our blogs), your performance was the HIGHLIGHT! hahas. yup. it was really good! hahas. aft school dismissed, i went back to PL and i reached there like at 11.30am cause i wanted to watch my little sis perform for e teachers day concert but guess wad? the stooooooooopid security guard didnt let me in! she said i couldnt go in until 12.45pm. man! imagine how pissed i was. thank God i lived only opposite so i could go home first. but i had quite a good time at my primary school lah. pigged out in the canteen! primary sch food is so CHEAP!! hahas, but actually the food kinda sucks. but we just ate it for oldtimes sake. yes...sentimental huh? lols. but i do miss primary school! all the carefree times...
yes please! someone! turn back the clock!! :) :(
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xinquan & sheena out
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Thursday, August 17, 2006
sighs.today's been a sad day. aunty joyce has gone home to be with the Lord after her long and brave battle with cancer. its really sad and it seems as though there's been so many deaths in our church this year. first, it was aunty Jenny, now this. sighs. it somehow seems pretty unreal to me. i mean, i just saw her on Sunday and on Sunday, i just ate some kinda nonya food she prepared...and now,i'll never see her up and around again. at least not for a very long time. these many years, she's always been cheerful and bright despite her illness and i guess i'll miss her. i pray that God will comfort her family and give them such supernatural peace in their hearts. i guess aunty joyce is in a better place where she is no longer suffering but i guess we'll still miss her lots and it's definitely much harder for her family. sighs. sometimes you can't help but wonder why God allows such things, i mean, she's always been so faithful in service to God, i can't help but ask why can't God give miraculously heal her?...but i guess, however hard it is to accept, somehow, His ways are not ours. i was kinda zoned out in sch today. i mean, aft receiving the msg that she was in critical cond, i kept praying for her recovery but i guess, God had other plans...sighs.
everything seems kinda down these few days. trng and school work's draining me and now plus this... i guess i can only draw strength from God ... gotta present my chinese pt tmr and i really wonder how i'm gonna do...sighs...somehow, only prayer will see me through this period of time
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when i am down you pick me up, when i am dry you fill my cup, you are my all in all -
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xinquan & sheena out
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Monday, August 07, 2006
God is good!! hahas. i can't believe i scored like 34/35 for my maths test. i mean, i noe quite a number of pple got full marks and so 34/35 isn't that great a deal (to others), but to me, its absolutely unbelievable. okok. let me explain. my 1st semester maths results were...terrible. i mean, i was just scraping through a 3.2 GPA. my test scores were like 23/40 or something like that. and i kinda thought that's it for me man. my maths can't make it. and it was quite bad for me cause i did quite well for maths last year. but i guess, God is ever so good. for e first test of the 2nd semester, i actually scored 35/35 and now this!!! it's amazing how God turns things arnd. now my maths aint that hopeless anymore. in case u're wondering what happened to that 1 mark. it was a CARELESS mistake. grrr... but i guess, i should still be more than thankful for the 34 marks!
another wonderful news was that yesterday i recieved the reply from SBA (s'pore badminton assoc) that i've been accepted into the youth squad. well, its really God's answer to my prayers and i'm really thankful for his blessings! Ever since i came out of sports sch last year, i've been trying to get into SBA but i've never been accepted (lots of politics)...and finding proper trng for myself was quite a tough thing. i've been really wanting to get in and i've been praying real hard. however, last week i received the letter that i wasnt accepted this year and u can say i was really disappointed. but my parents wrote in again to ask why i wasnt accepted when my results were better than some of their players. aft that, i sort of told the Lord that i leave the whole matter to Him. Whether i get in or not, i trust that He has everything planned out for me, "plans to prosper me not harm me". and i think God taught me how to trust and let Him take control of my life through this experience. He's really great.
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xinquan & sheena out
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Sunday, August 06, 2006
ok. i guess i didnt really update this blog. its been a mad rush. 3rd term in RGS is always like that. crazy test schedules and piles of performance tasks. i just WANNA SCREAM!!! ARGHHHH! okok...stress relieve is over.
oh well, so much has been going on that i dunno where to start and i cant possibly write everything down...well, to start with, track is over for this year. thank God! well, but i got badminton doubles tournament coming up this september! i really really hope to be able to get into the top 4 positions! i guess i just gotta do my God and let God do the rest.well, actually, that's often easier said than done. i WORRY too much. i guess i gotta learn...it'll save me lotsa white hair yah. ok. enuf of my lame jokes. but this tournament is quite important cause it might enable me to get into SBA. well, if u didnt noe, i've been tryin to get in but somehow i always dun get in although my tournament results are not bad and i can win some of their players. yahs. i guess its alot of politics. but i dunno lah. maybe not going to SBA may be better too cause i wont be so busy. but yet again, it'll be so much better to have proper training. oh well, i guess i'll leave it to God lah. if he wants me there, he'll make a way and if he thinks im better outta there, well, than i can only trust that he makes all things work for good. oh well... but i still wanna get in!. hahas okok.. i'll just wait and see and of course...pray.
the past few weeks have also been a great spiritual journey for me i must say. i believe God is really working and i'm really excited about it. i mean, it feels really so good to feel connected with God. i mean, it feels that my life is now centred around God and it never felt so right.. of course i stumble (very often). i mean, i'm not perfect. its not like i've sudd become some kinda saint or something but at least now i try to live a life as pleasing to God as possible...and life has never been as fulfilling as living for God. I wanna do more for His kingdom and it's really exciting. just a few weeks ago, youth ablaze was talking abt mission and i really hope i can go on one at the end of this year! imagine how God would show up!
today's service at church was amazing! we got this asian american speaker to speak. she's very young! only abt 28 i think! but God is using her so mightily! she's like a modern day prophet and she's so sensitive to God's voice!!how i wish i could hear God as clearly as she does! and her message was really powerful and interesting. i prob could rattle off and type out her whole sermon out here but to save your eyes from staring too long at the com, i'll cut the long story short! basically, she felt that God is going to bring a great harvest across Asia and it's gonna start with Singapore and our church would be used mightily!! and the confirmations she got from the Lord were amazing!!! it's like God had it all planned out! she was speaking about the angel called "breakthrough" appearing to her group in berkely and also to one of the pastor in Singapore, telling them that "Breakthrough is here" its really so cool!!! i wanna see angels too! but aside from that, there were many other confirmations that were just awesome! another thing was that Singapore is 40 this year and turning 41 and in the Bible, the Isrealites wondered in the wilderness for 40 years and crossed over in the 41st year!!! so this is the year of the cross over! the great harvest!!! oh man! there were still many more stuff that shows that this was God's divine arrangement and not just some coincidence!!! okok. i better stop here...my mum's bugging me for the com...but to end off on a high note,
GOD IS AWESOME!!! a million amens to that!!!!
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xinquan & sheena out
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